On Sunday night, the raid leader who was doing a Sunday/Monday 10-man progression group said that the group was disbanding and there would be no more Sunday raid. As a result, we lost a few good guild members.
I gave my phone number out to a few people in the guild so that I can be reached if something big should happen to go down, fortunately, they haven’t used it that often, mostly to tell me they killed Nefarian or the Lich King. Ha! But I did get a text that night to tell me that the group announced it was folding. I had just gotten back from a weekend of fishing. I asked if the guild culture seemed like I needed to log on, but they said there was no drama, just an announcement.
In a way, it felt like a big failure to me personally, as if I only would have done something different, I could have saved the group. I know that’s not the case, but I still feel like maybe I let this group down. And of course then I am challenged with the question of why I don’t raid lead myself.
In Crits, I the GM, do not lead a raid. I feel that many guilds come about because someone wants to start a raid group and do it their way, so they make their own guild. Crits was founded on fun first, and raiding later. I have always encouraged raiding in the guild, but asked members to step up to lead as I was not a raider myself. We have had several people step into a raid leader role in Crits and some have succeeded and some have not. I often feel bad when a group doesn’t succeed and as a result the guild losses not only good players and good people, but it looses opportunity as well.
I beat myself up over not leading a raid sometimes. That maybe if I did it the culture would be a little different. But I’m just not that into raiding, but I am into empowerment and ownership. And I think of myself more as Guild Father than Guild Master anyways. Mostly, I’m just there to make sure the kids don’t swear too much and keep their room (the guild bank) clean of junk.
As someone who wasn’t even in the raid, I’m probably taking it harder than I should. The guild is big enough to support more than the one 10-man raid that we do, but finding people willing to lead groups is a challenge. I do hope that the disbanding of the raid will lighten the mood of those players a bit, smooth out some bumps. Perhaps a group will reform eventually, maybe even all it needs is a vacation. I don’t know that raids take enough vacations sometimes.
Crits will endure this and continue on, it just makes me a little sad.