Last night I did something for the first time since the release of Cataclysm. I healed a dungeon. No not a heroic, Elgar doesn’t even qualify yet. But he does qualify for all the normal dungeons, so I tossed myself in queue and thought, what the heck. I asked in guild if anyone wanted to come to a normal, but no dice. So I went it alone.
I got a great group, they were a guild group, 4 people, and I explained that I haven’t healed any instances in Cataclysm yet and please let me know if there is anything I should do or anything I need to know about the fights. They went slow, were very patient with me, used CC. All good things. But…
It was horrible.
I was going near OOM on most trash pulls (oh this was Halls of Origination) but I had read this was sorta typical for most healers, so I wasn’t too concerned. We get to the first boss. Chaos. People are out of range, I can’t find them even, I am panicking to keep everyone alive, my heals seem so trivial to their 105 to 145k health pools. I’m trying to work in smite to keep my heals larger and get back mana, but there isn’t time. I’m using Inner Focus every 45 seconds…it’s just chaos. The tank dies. I keep mashing buttons and somehow between the two hunters pets we tank and kill him.
I am less than encouraged at this time. I didn’t even let a tank die the first time I did ToC 5-man on heroic. Clearly things have changed. I try to remember this, but I feel literally sick to my stomach as I’m rezzing the tank. I want to cry and barf. I make some comments into guild chat and soon people are telling me that disc priests are broken, it’s not just bubble people anymore. And I do realize this already, and I think I’m doing the right things, but all my heals cost so much mana and heal for SO little. But basically it’s a resounding, disc is broken or you need high gear to play it. Great.
We continue on, it’s horrible. By the end of the instance (we killed everything – there are optional bosses??) my recount is showing that there have been 20 deaths, 6 of which are the tank. I was literally barfy. I wanted to delete Elgar (don’t worry, I didn’t, I won’t really do it). Someone suggests that I try holy, but unfortunately disc wasn’t the only think broken last night. My spirit and confidence in healing was also broken. I literally sat there stunned in my chair, ready to barf, and possibly my hands physically shaking.
Is this what healing has become? Or is it just that disc really is that broken? Either way, I couldn’t believe it. Something I used to love so much has now become something that I never want to do again. And I sat there thinking that Elgar’s endgame experience is going to be transmuting, fishing up Mr. Pinchy, farming up herbs, and digging up artifacts. Hardly what I expected.
I logged over to Rossini to DE a staff Elgar won. I like Rossini, but he’s not Elgar. No one is Elgar. I logged out and looked at the loading screen. I know Elgar still has some gear improvements, but this was a normal dungeon. Normal. And it was so horrible. I looked at him. How is it that my favorite character has now become a placeholder on the log-in screen? I truly am broken.
I guess the one positive thing about the night is this: I know what NOT to dual spec the shaman, paladin, and druid as…heals.