First off, thanks to everyone for the words of encouragement on healing from my previous post.
I think I figured out a big chunk of why this is shaking me up so much. I’ve always thought I was okay at DPS and tanking, I could get the job done, I wouldn’t top meters in a 10 man, but would usually do pretty well or in a 5-man I could hit pretty good DPS. Tanking usually went well, making sure there weren’t lose mobs, moving appropriately, etc. The reason Cataclysm healing has upset me so much is that if there was one thing I always felt good at in the game it was healing.
If I had to think of all the best moments in the game, the moments where I felt like my playing really made the difference, or just those awesome clutch moments where I pulled through, they all happened on my priest, while healing. Those were the moments I loved, the reason I loved healing, I liked all those times where things went slightly bad but I pulled through. But now I feel scared and completely incapable of making it through a normal dungeon in Cataclysm. The one character I really felt solid on now feels completely awful and insecure. All confidence in my healing abilities has been shaken.
I think this is why I’m taking this first Cataclysm dungeon so hard. The one thing I felt good at in the game is now the thing I feel worst at. I know that eventually I’ll give it another try again. But for now, Elgar leaves me feeling a bit…lost.
Again, thanks for all the kind words of encouragement. I’ll get back on the bike and try to learn to ride again, but for me, this was a pretty hard fall, so I’m going to need some time to lick my wounds.